Welcome to my world...

2012-02-26T21:55:00.002+08:00

Its been a crazy year.

My patience, capability and management skills were really tested.

I have to admit, I was at the brink of giving up.

I thought that I was not good enough.

I thought I will not be able to execute my job properly.

As days passed, I told myself, "I CANT GIVE UP now."

Instead of giving up, i decided to think of many ways

I can handle the challenges at work.

Alhamdullilah, with perseverance, I saw a glimpse of hope

I realized that I just need to tweak my strategies in order to

assist my students' weaknesses and to hone on their strengths.

So far, so good.

The kids are more calm, more ready to learn.

I grew to like them more and more as days passed.

Im intrigued with their innocence, their playfulness.

Its always interesting to hold a conversation with the kids.

At times, they will say something very sweet which just make my day.

I know, I am at the right place.

There's no other place I would want to be. =)

God, gave me the strength to accept you in FB when you added me.

Cuz God want to tell me ONCE and for all that what I thought you were,

was all just my assumptions.

You were not, a strong believer of true love.

Someone who jumped from one girl to another, may not know what is love.

So, what we had, wasnt mutual love.

I don't know what you were feeling,

but I know now, it wasnt real.

I thought it was, but I guess Its never too late.

Good luck, with the #6718110-th girl!

2012-02-04T05:45:00.001+08:00

Feels like my heart suddenly stops.
Or maybe that's how person with cardiac arrest feels.

So, u found someone new. Again
I should b happy, but gotta admit I'm not.

Note to self: delete him. Delete him.

Smiles :)

2012-02-01T00:21:00.001+08:00

She brought smiles to my day by subscribing me. ;)
She's all grown up now.

2012-01-22T23:19:00.002+08:00

2012-01-21T22:07:00.002+08:00

Should I even bother to decipher

what these recurring dreams mean?

I cant help but to be affected, for

I am having dreams of someone

each time I fall asleep.

Different plot each night,

but of the same person.

How do I stop this recurring dreams?

Sometimes, its not within our means

to control our dreams.

Whatever it is, I hope THIS recurring

dreams will stop soon.

2012-01-14T23:46:00.001+08:00

Working almost 12 hours everyday.
Studying on a Saturday.
All I wanna do now... Is to have one long sleep!!

I decided to take a break tomorrow to go shopping with bestie tmr. :)

I must treat myself by getting myself a gift for all the hardwok I've put in since sch reopened! I deserve a nice gift! :)

2012-01-07T21:39:00.001+08:00

Ive been working 12-15hours this past week,

and my Saturday aint spared either.

New class. New students. Added responsibilities.

I hope things will be different when my buddy teacher

comes back from her maternity.

I got to endure for THREE more weeks.

I badly need to de-stress myself.

Now now, what should I do?

(Richard Marx) Right Here Waiting - Sungha Jung

2011-12-26T22:45:00.000+08:00

He played it really really well!

Good Job, kiddo!

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
Waiting for you

2011-12-18T01:15:00.002+08:00

Life's aint easy.

But, I thank god for I am surrounded with people who

care and who are really patient with me.

I think they are angels in disguise.

So, when the going get tough,

I have faith that everything will turn out fine in the end.

2011-12-16T23:47:00.001+08:00

Don't say I did not try.

I tried to fill up that empty room.

But, no matter what I did,

I end up going to an empty room.

Korea fun!

2011-12-08T21:07:00.001+08:00

My 4th day in Korea! :)
It just get better each passing day!

In 4 days, I took 3 flights, went hiking, skied at mountain sorak, went to lots of museums, watch a world wide famous musical, Jump, made lots of new friends and the list goes on!

Don't want this trip to end! ><

2011-12-01T18:53:00.001+08:00

In life, this is what i learn.

1) Never ever give your heart to the wrong person

who never ever trust you.

It's sad to know that even after giving your all,

i was being misjudged and misunderstood.

It doesnt matter if you love the person so deeply,

cuz to the other person, you are just

a bittersweet memory...

It doesnt matter if you were true, It doesnt matter

if he is the only one you thought about,

Cuz at the end of the day, all the above doesnt matter.

It doesnt matter whether you are inncocent.

It doesnt matter whether your conscience is clear

and you did nothing wrong.

All that doesnt matter as long one PARTY chose

not to trust, believe and most importantly

when that party decided to DROP everything even

though the truth did not prevails.

I learn something important today.

Never ever love someone who dont trust you.
Sad sad situation. But, this situation it taught me
never ever love someone that DONT BELIEVE IN YOU!!
Im really emotionally drained by this experience.
Ive cried way too much. Im hurt way too much.
Was it worth it?
Was it worth being in denial,
and leaving scar to get bigger and bigger?
I only come to accept the fact,
that its not worth getting hurt no more.
Rina, you gotta wake up.
Its not worth it.

2) On the other hand, Im amaze why

despite me still hanging on my past,

still clinging on the history, complaining

and been in denial for year,

there is that someone who never relentlessly

listen to me being emo for the past 2 years.

Im surprise HOW can anyone endure someone like me?

Im surprise to know why would anyone like a girl

who always talk about her history,

who simply cant just move on with her life,

who cant accept the fact it was o-v-e-r donkey years ago.

In relationship, it really take two hands to clap.

I dont want to love someone too much, too deep,

and in return not being trusted at all.

I dont want a guy to love me too much, too deep,

but I cant give him anything at all,

I dont want to weigh him down with my baggage.

Good guys dont deserve any emotional baggage from me. They dont.

I guess, being apart from emotional attachment at

this moment is beneficial to me.

How I wish, its a norm being single in this world.

How I wish everyone can live independently,

instead of relying on a "soulmate"

Cuz work has been really hectic, I didnt had much

time to think anything related to the heart.

Im still taking my time to sort this out.

Im still taking my time to do the right thing.

I need to analyze the situation, think what i really want in life,

think what i want to achieve in life, think of my future,

then, decide on what i will do and what action(s) i am going to take.

It may be a life-changing decisions.

I have to make a life-changing decision.

We dont have eternity to try out different means to achieve our goals.

I got to be decisive and think thoroughly before executing anything.

Im waiting for Sunday to come.

Hopefully, this trip will be a life-changing experience for me,

and hopefully when im back, i am more certain

what I plan to do with my life.

When you really matter to someone,

that person will always make time for you.

No excuses, no lies, and no broken promises.

I need someone who can do just that for me,

and vice versa.

2011-12-01T16:36:00.001+08:00

Being a Math teacher looks fun,

but the work needed to be done before teaching is CRAZY!

The need to align with 21st Century Skills,

the need to invent and create hands on activities

are indeed time consuming.

Topics like Number to 10 may be easy but but but....

executing the lessons in a way the students will be able to

grasp the concepts...is AN another story!

*breathe in breathe out*

Now, that the school is expanding fast,

with a new campus and all,

the stress and challenges are getting pretty visible now.

But, above all..........Im pretty excited

excited to try my utmost best!

Excited to know and learn more about my new students.

Life will not be the same anymore.

Hopefully, I wont go bonkers like the Math Teacher

in the picture above!

"Oh Tuhanku, berikan padaku kekuatan ...."

2011-11-28T23:06:00.001+08:00

Just as when I thought u were different,

I guess I was wrong.

Perhaps u were the same.

Should I give you any chance?

No looking back now.

2011-11-26T00:17:00.001+08:00

I'm excited on the new position and responsibilities

that was informed to me today morning.

Major changes and accountability.

Will I be able to do it smoothly?

I've got this weekend to list down my my

priorities and 101 things I gotta do for the new year.

Gotta stay focus and change the way I organize my work!

2011-11-21T15:55:00.001+08:00

Checklist for the heart.... :)

2011-11-20T23:38:00.001+08:00

One thing lacking in me,
Is the ability to appreciate what I have
And cherishing those who truly care.

I've made one mistake of not cherishing someone, and it may be one of the reasons the relationship ended.
It took me years to realize that I actually take advantage of
people who really care about me.

I love receiving, till I don't even know how to give.
Maybe, im just too self centered.

I've come to a point. I should not be selfish no more.
It's either I learn how to cherish others, or just let the person go.
It's selfish for me to hold on to someone if I do not know the basic thing of appreciating someone.

I'm glad I'll be away from Singapore for a short period.

Maybe, a different environment, atmosphere, is just what I need now.

I rather be sad for the rest of my life, than to make others sad due to my selfish and inconsiderate actions.

In times of these, i pray to god I'm able to make the right decision.

2011-11-20T01:00:00.001+08:00

Unbelievable!!

I actually CHOSE to stop my

Korea show to do the above comic strips!

My first attempt in doing a comic strip based

on scenario given by lecturer.

And so, I actually completed it in a whooping

2 hours. Unbelievable!

My group-mates decided to use comic strip

for presentation to highlight what are

the possible scenarios that MAY go wrong

in a classroom....

I know the characters may not be professionally done,

but I think I did pretty good for a first-timer!

Now, work is done!

Im going back to korean show!

HARANG HA SEYO!!

(the few korean words I know....)

2011-11-13T22:14:00.001+08:00

2011-11-08T23:38:00.001+08:00

Never in the world I thought I have the courage

to wake up from my dream.

Never in the world I thought I have the courage

to ask the questions I never dare to ask

But, I took the chance.

I tried.

I embrace the possibilities.

And, it may hurt, but its worth getting hurt.

Because, only when you get really hurt and crushed,

that's where you learn.

I have two MISSIONS to accomplish this month.

Ive accomplished ONE.

I have one more mission to execute.

It's difficult, but I just gotta do it!

I gotta take the risk,

even though it may not be the outcome I want.

2011-11-03T20:17:00.001+08:00

Mom and aunties so cute! They started a private post in FB on how to celebrate my birthday! I love love my family! When everything falls back, I'm glad they are there to give me all the love I need.

But, all I want for my birthday is................. (2009 Post)

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Location:Family lurve

2011-11-01T19:28:00.001+08:00

Good morning everyone!
November is a fine fine month.
Nice cooling weather, as teachers are
Smiling knowing the holidays are coming real soon.

I'll be away for two weeks overseas and I'm looking forward for the trips of the year, with me and my family members and another trip, just me and a gf.

I'm gonna take this time to just reconsider my life in 2012.

I am glad to know government is making an attempt for an inclusive education. I'm happy to know the plans they have for my precious students.

I am so attached to these students that I'm willing to stay long to see a difference in their lives.

And, I want to change the perception of the public of my students.

Educational psychology module inspires me further to reiterate further to the public that we are all born the same, with different set of abilities and disabilities. We are all not perfect. You got to admit that!

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2011-11-01T00:02:00.004+08:00

6 MORE DAYS!!!!!

I cant wait!! =)

Again - Bruno Mars & Natasha Bedingfield Lyrics

2011-10-30T14:23:00.000+08:00

Almost cried listening to this song.
Only the BRAVES will be able to do it all over again.

It Gets Better: Bruno Mars - Today My Life Begins

2011-10-30T14:06:00.000+08:00

Today My Life Begins!

2011-10-26T12:58:00.001+08:00

Im usually pretty decisive when it comes to

the matter of the heart.

Either I can feel it, or I cant.

Yet this time round, I am greatly confuse.

I an stuck, uncertain on

what I really want.

I am in the midst of clearing my mind,

for I have to make a decision fast

before anyone gets hurt.

In times like these, I have no one

except Allah to guide me along

so that I wont make any more mistakes

and for me to have the strength

to move on with life,

no matter how difficult it can be.

I know, some friends might be

thinking why I am so EMOTIONAL

LATELY.

I have not been the chirpy positive

girl I ALWAYS appear to be.

I dont wish to lie and deceive myself further.

I AM FACING A PROBLEM RIGHT NOW

AND I WANNA SOLVE IT FAST.

I WANT TO MOVE ON FROM MY HISTORY.

I REALLY NEED TO. =(

2011-10-25T06:32:00.001+08:00

2011-10-24T18:22:00.001+08:00

Love, is a silly things.
I'm willing to sacrifice my happiness
Just to see you happy.

Silly, isn't it?

2011-10-24T18:21:00.001+08:00

2 bunnies in the house!
:)

2011-10-23T22:28:00.001+08:00

I love my family!
They never fail to stand my me, in times of ups and downs!

Love all you to pieces!!

2011-10-18T23:13:00.001+08:00

2011-10-17T23:14:00.001+08:00

One of the reasons I watch

X-Factor.

Strangers, again

2011-10-16T23:22:00.001+08:00

Sounds familiar?
:)

2011-10-13T21:41:00.001+08:00

Officially the worst day of my working life.

Did I do the right thing?

Was I too firm?

What's the best way?

I dont have much time with them.

I must really cherish these moments.

2011-10-10T21:17:00.000+08:00

Why is everything going haywire?

Why do I smile, showing a false front?

Why do I try to stay strong,

when end of the day, I just cant stop the tears from flowing?

Why cant I just run away and be emotionally independent?

Why do people hurt me time and time again?

Why do I have to love you so much?

Why do I love someone who doesnt care about me at all?

Why I do love the wrong person who doesnt appreciate me?

I know he's not worth even in memory or in my thoughts,

but why he is still in mine?

Why is it that I hate him so much,

yet thinking of him all the time?

Why is it so hard to appreciate what Ive done?

Why? Why? Why?

Im sick.

Im tired.

Im really really tired.

Beyoncé - Best Thing I Never Had

2011-10-07T23:30:00.001+08:00

s

Did I, for some reason clicked on something which I should not?
Did I?

Oh no. What have I done?
Can I, rewind and delete my action?

*smack forehead*

2011-10-07T12:00:00.001+08:00

We all want to fall in love. Why?
Because that experience makes us feel completely alive,
where every sense is heightened,
and every emotion is magnified.
Our everyday reality is shattered
and we are flying into the heavens.
It may only last a moment, an hour, or an afternoon,
but that doesn't diminish its value,
because we are left with memories
that we treasure for the rest of our lives.

How long has it been? 2 Years?
So, how are you?

2011-10-06T11:55:00.002+08:00

Disciplining a child ain't easy.

Discipling a special child is harder.

Teaching is easy, you just have to ensure they are calm and ready to learn.

A child who cries over every little things is a challenge.

I find it easier to handle kids who are non verbal or

even those who uses hands as a way to protest.

But, I guess we humans have our limits.

My limit, currently,is for a child who cries and

shrieks with that high pitch voice for an hour non stop.

I tend to get slightly irritated but I told myself to be calm.

He didn't choose to behave that way.So, I breathe in and breathe out.

I explained and rationalized to him what he did was wrong

and what "appropriate behavior" he must do the next time he encounters a problem.

I know he will take a long time to understand but,

I'm sureIf we teachers do not give up, he will change.

Thankfully, I was able to stay in the staff room

for a period after the incident.I needed to further calm myself down,

I need to remember the reasons why I'm in this line,

So educating a child ain't easy.But, when a child

learnt and transformed,I know it's all worth it.

2011-10-04T17:25:00.003+08:00

Focus Rina Focus.
Look Forward, never turn back.
They said, when u love someone so much,
all you want, is for them to be happy,
irregardless what their feelings for you.

FORWARD. FUTURE. THINK FAR.

Is this what I really want?

delete entry
delete entry
deleting you
deleting you.

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2011-09-11T23:36:00.001+08:00

I'm stress!!!!!!!

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2011-09-04T23:18:00.001+08:00

I'm glad to say, it's the best raya I ever had.

The tears that dropped, on first day of raye were tears of joy n happiness.

The feud between two siblings is over.

Made up with a colleague.

Family love is everywhere.
Alhamdullilah. I thank god for everything.

Amin.

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2011-08-22T20:57:00.001+08:00

Awesome weekend!

Reunion with pri school peeps on sat.

Girly outing on Sunday. :)

Today, I was disheartened to receive news that my n level student did badly for her prelim exam.

I believe she has did her best, tried her mighty best despite her chronic illness. The race is not over yet. I must hold her hand and guide her as much as possible to complete this race!

I have to persevere. I have to help her, insyallah.

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Shop shop, let's shop!

2011-08-19T21:27:00.001+08:00

Shopping on a Friday.
Looking around for a nice n presentable dress to wear for pri sch reunion Iftar dinner but...

Nothing seems to catch my eyes.
Oh, what shall i wear tmr? ;)

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Location:Ion

2011-08-11T23:23:00.001+08:00

I wanna go to a place, where I can be free.

Roam around and find meaning of life.

I wanna know what's next, for I'm just floating with the drift.

At times, the strong currents were too much for me to handle, yet I know, never to give up.

But, I want to know where are the waves leading me to.

I need to go to a place I can find answers.

I may just get the answers if i land myself at the right place.

Oh waves oh waves,
Bring me there.

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Location:Waves n hurdles

2011-08-10T11:49:00.001+08:00

Our school is in the News again!
Proud of my students! Great job!

Happy national day to all true blue Singaporean!
(not including PR!)

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Location:National day

2011-08-01T06:44:00.001+08:00

My weekend.

Friday

Dinner with my best best girls @ swensens. Yummy clam soup. My favorite soup all time! Gulp!

Saturday

Psychology class. Knowing how mind works, and memorizing skills are like ultra cool!

Spending 10hrs at work on Saturday was worth it!!!!!

Sunday

Girlish outing with colleague, Deb!!!!! Perm hair, massage, facial, shopping and nandos are great to do with a gf!!!

I love their MPH!! Filled with lots of religious books. Can't resist but to buy a couple....

Weekend over yo.
Now it's back to work.
One busy busy week for me!

Happy puase y'all!
A time to get as much reflect and improve ourself as a Muslim! ;)

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Location:Weekend

Psychology project

2011-07-25T16:26:00.001+08:00

2 days in a row, in National Library, but this time alone.

Peace and quiet. Just what I need now!

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Location:Nlb

2011-07-23T16:34:00.001+08:00

Another 2 years of coffees, red bulls and chicken essence.

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Unsure, uncertain

2011-07-19T22:09:00.001+08:00

How do one attain happiness?
Mind, and heart don't feel at ease.

It's easy to make me smile.
But to feel blissful, is hard.

I am contented with how life turn up to be for me.

But, those nights, my heart feel blues, seems like something is missing, and I can't just make out what it is.

When Feelings are in doubt, I've got nothing but ny dreams to fall back to,
to search comfort n peace.

Goodnight, world.
Do you feel bliss every night?

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2011-07-17T18:40:00.003+08:00

I didnt expect NIE course to be this TAXING.

Every SATURDAY, 9-4PM!!!

There goes my weekend for the next 2 years!!

But, i guess there's no backing out now.
Gotta stay strong, mentally & physically for the
next t-w-o years!!

2011-07-16T00:34:00.001+08:00

Minutes before I left home to esplanade to watch this amazing Malay theatre show, "Jumaat 6 Pagi" written by my Pathlight colleague.

Some pictures with my beloved nephews, before he allowed me to step out of the house!

Love him lots!!

Had a quick dinner at mcd before literally running to theatre studio in esplanade.

I managed to reach there minutes before the show started. Amazing play. Depicts a story of a man who was about to sentence to death, and his last conversation with his mom.

Simple stage set up but intense emotions and good playing of lights and sounds.

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2011-07-11T20:14:00.004+08:00

I just remembered that I have tonnes of pictures
stored in www.multiply.com.

How thin I used to be.
Till someone asked me, " Are u bulimic?"
Im weight conscious, but I doubt to that EXTENT!

Sometimes its nice, to reminisce about the past,
but I am looking forward for my f.u.t.u.r.e.

To my future,
BRING IT ON!! :)

Anyway, BESTIE is so sweet today!
She SMS me something very very long
and said she misses me.

Isnt she the sweetest thing?

Miss ya too, Sharifah Noor Ain!!

Cant wait to have a girls outing with you + Dilla + Ain!!!

2011-07-10T23:13:00.001+08:00

My Saturday.

They were my BFF in primary school. We, four, were finally reunited after so so long!

I reached home, to realize someone dearest came to my house while I was away to give a lil surprise to me!

Thank u for the gift! Gonna bring it to work tomorrow! ;)

My Sunday

Johor trip was awesome with great friends.

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Angry

2011-07-09T06:18:00.001+08:00

Current mood now: bewildered.

Service recovery FAILED!

Gonna head the beach to let my hair down.

Hmm. Does that looks like a bewildered face?

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Location:Home

2011-07-05T17:32:00.001+08:00

Someone send me this early in the morning.

A simple message, yet I feel it has really strong meaning, and does apply to me.

I've been trying very hard, to let go of the past, always fighting with my own emotions the past two years.

I've learnt in the couple of months, that there's no point for me thinking of the past, where I should focus on the present n the future.

I've had a really great time the past few months, just being myself, always giggling n laughing and doing things my way.

All I can say, I'm glad to be back! :)

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2011-07-04T14:12:00.002+08:00

I chuckled reading this FB msg which
was conversed between my mom and him.
Hehehe. Simply hilarious.

Conversation about sup tulang.
tee hee hee.

Have a great Monday y'all!!

My cutie pie

2011-06-30T20:38:00.002+08:00

He was asked to draw his dreams. And my cutie pie from school drew that picture.

Ahh. What can we conclude from here?

He has a complicated mind?
Perhaps.

He's still as adorable as ever, making my working life extremely fulfilling n colorful! ;)

Anyway, the same cutie pie made me ran around the school under the heavy rain just now.

And now, I'm sick. :(
Having flu since morning.
Head spinning round n round.

Gotta turn in early!
Nights world! :)

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2011-06-27T22:06:00.002+08:00

Girls born in my time, probably
grew up watching Cinderella, Snow White,
Beauty and the beast times and times again!
I think Ive watched those classics a million
times, and never do I get bored watching it,
even though I know the plot extremely well.

A girl, will always be a girl,
regardless of age or job position she holds.
We may, one way or another,
looks for fairy tale to happens
along the way.
You know, those small little actions,
which shows HUGE meanings.

Do only girls have this fairytale syndrome?
The question is, is it enough for relationship
to just be practical?
No fairy tales magics?
Is security enough in a relationship?

I may met some wrong princes along the way.
Some wrong knights along the way.
But, wont it wonderful to have
some fairy tales magics in life?

Im not implying anything.
Just food for thoughts for the day.
=)

2011-06-26T18:09:00.002+08:00

What A GREAT ending to my June Holidays!!!!!

My boss was exceptionally NICE to everyone.
So, last Friday, ALL staff were given a free tickets
to enter USS!!!!!
And, a $125 meal voucher for each group!!!!!!
We were all split into random groups and
for HR was kind enough to allow me
to join P1 teachers, instead of P6 teachers!
Took Mummy ride again, and it was
still CRAZILY scary for me!!

Anneth, one of Sharifah's colleague was like SUPER nice
to me last Friday.
She send me a last minute FB msg and told me
that she wanna give away her Lion King's Tickets FOR FREE!!!
I was shocked, and excited all at the same time.
So, straight away, after USS outing, Ain and I
headed to MBS to catch the magical show.
I love it soooooo much!
Today, I got to know my dearie was planning
to treat me to Lion King's too!!
Isnt he such a sweetheart!

To you: I dont mind watching
it TWICE!! Twice free! hehe...

I was craving for BK breakfast today.
So, me and dear decided to meet up
for Breakfast followed by a movie.

I was sad.
We were late.
Missed out BK breakfast.
Missed out Free Sunday M1 ticket.
Darn.
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But, i still had fun!
Must remain positive.
There's always a rainbow
after a rain!
Cheers! :)

2011-06-23T18:24:00.004+08:00

Major headache last night.
The anxiety attack.
Left me sleeping for hours.
And to make it worse,
I had 2 bad dreams consecutively.

Dreamt of the past part 1.

Woke up for 5 mins.

Dreamt of the past part 2.

It's like as if one dream isn't sufficient.
There had to be the sequel.
And all thanks to the 2nd sequel,
it caused me to turn deaf,
And I continued sleeping
Without hearing the alarm clock!

-_-'

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Wednesday

2011-06-22T23:18:00.001+08:00

Fruits galore for lunch

And five mins later, self indulge in fatty food.

But, I had half a meal. A meal shared between two friends. So, it's half fattening?

Hee.

I'm feeling nervous and anxious all at the same time.

Time table for term 3 was just released to us, and I must say it's very challenging this time round.

I must remain positive.

I must use this opportunity N use this time to learn more about my student n to help them as much as possible.

Feeling all the jitters now. 4 mote days to go! Arggghhhh! -_-'

Back to work yo.

2011-06-21T21:48:00.002+08:00

I survived the first two working days.

I've got to admit, it was quite a struggle to change my
body clock and all, but once I was back to my
personal table in the staffroom,
im starting to get the work vibes
and slowly changing my mindset.

It's been two weeks since i left you, and ure still the same.

It's a hate n love relationship with you.

You were always there when I need you.
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I miss u, my messy table!

Time to do some cleaning to
my dearest table! Hee...

Had a nice lunch with my sweetest
colleagues at pasta mania today.

Tried a new pasta..
Something something cheese crumble pasta.

Super cheesy. super I like!

After our 2hrs lunch, we quickly grabbed
my all time favorite melon milk tea from gong cha.

Something to accompany me while I do my lesson plans...

I survived my Tuesday!
Yay!!

Recharge and all.

Had a good an hr of jog with my dearest jiesi...

I feel doubly recharged now!

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Sunday

2011-06-19T12:35:00.004+08:00

I had one of the most exciting dream, and while
it was about to go climax...

The phone had to rang!

So, despite having only 5hours of sleep,
I dragged myself out of the
bed, had a quick shower,

And headed to have my $120 facial.
It lasted only for 10mina but face felt really good! Love it!

Headed to the gym right after and did abit of
workout for exactly an hour. Feels refreshing!

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My Thursday

2011-06-17T00:46:00.001+08:00

It was a nice reunion with Uni friends as we celebrated LZ's bday. He's one nice chap who always is neutral with all his classmates, and one smartass. Ooops. He is top student of the cohort, but always so humble and helpful to others in need. Never ever fail to explain to us the theory which we need helped in, or explain to us in doing an assignment but, we always have trouble grasping what he is trying to say as he talks in a kind of gibberish language, where we normal humans fail to comprehend. Anyway, happy belated birthday lz!!!!

So, before meeting the peeps for birthday dinner, QH and me went hunting for la's birthday but ended up shopping for our own stuff. In the end, we reached the restaurant 30mins late! Heheheh

Had superb indo-Thai food from Bali Thai! This is what we had...

And to end my blog, one of my student(voluntary tuition) is so sweet to send me a rather funny SMS when I told her I have trouble sleeping.

It's been a joy knowing her. I see her as one of my inspiration. Though I can be strict with her at times, cuz I know she can excel in her studies, I learnt alot from her. I learnt that, regardless of what challenges we might face in life, we must remain positive and live life to the the fullest! So, despite her having own medical challenges, she's always chirpy and smiley, giving me positive vibes each time I see her!

I know one day, u will be able to reach for your dreams, if u continue to remain positive and work hard to achieve ur dreams n goals! Jia you!!!!! ;)

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Very Sad Movie Clip

2011-06-16T14:42:00.001+08:00

A friend of mine posted this online.
Starvation is no laughing matter.
It Pains me to see how the children are suffering, unable to walk.
They barely can move, let alone walk.
What is life to these innocent poor kids?
Are they feeling hell in this place call earth?
My heart truly goes out to these kids who have yet understand
the meaning of happiness.

Ive always have a soft spot for children who is at the disadvantage.
Perhaps, thats why, i stand firm to my job
because i know, one way or another, i can make a difference in their life.
But, what i am doing is not enough.
There are more kids out there, around the world
who is suffering and dying from hunger.
What can i possibly do?
Maybe I should start small.
Maybe i should start saving and at least,
a small sum to me, may be food to them for months.

Before I do passed on, my wish is to do something
to give a better life to some of these kids.

I know I am not influential, but small steps
mean something big to someone. :)

2011-06-16T14:16:00.000+08:00

Fun time at USS!

2011-06-13T15:20:00.002+08:00

1st week of June holidays!!

1st week of the holiday was spend with my loved ones.
Family, friends and my dear. :)
From watching artsy fatsy musical theater
to a night at hard rock hotel.
Of course, spending 3 days doing voluntary tuition.

1. Started the week with a lunch with dear
at Teppanyanki Restaurant.
It was interesting to see the chef doing his
wonder right in front of us. Flipping his
extremely dangerous knife.
Well, i would rate their food at 6/10.
Passable but not terrific.

Watched theater cum musical show
"I love you, you're perfect, now change"
and we met some local artiste
and someone was pretty HIGH
and excited because he met
his idol, Slyvia Ratonel.
Although he didn't said it out loud,
his excitements were written all over his face!
But im cool with him.
And, so I saw Keegan, one of those Ch 5 artiste,
and it was my turn to be all excited!
hahhaha.....

2. So, we all dream that one day we all could
be Prince n Princess.

My dearest friend was not shy AT all
passing me her birthday wishlist.
We thanked HER for the list,
cuz it does helped in narrowing
what to buy for her gift.

So, with my lazy dress and
my shades, Harry & I went to hunt for the
perfect blusher to buy for her
and we decided to get Givenchy blusher
for her!

We did a bit of celebration on Friday @
Manhattan Fish Market & watching X Men thereafter!
Love the movie. 5 POPCORNS!

3. And ended the week with a BLAST
with a stay cum birthday celebration
at Hard Rock Hotel.

Hotel was great.
Pool was great.
Awesome awesome time with the girls!!!!!

Pictures tell it all.

- my naked face, no makeup. preparing to sleep!

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the mrbrown show: a righteous president

2011-06-08T00:41:00.000+08:00

the mrbrown show: a righteous president

Elections may be over,
but soon Singaporeans will be casting their vote,
on who shall be their future president.

Will the next president be as righteous and virtous
as the late Mr. Ong Teng Cheong. Mr Ong was tangled in a dispute over the
access of information regarding Singapore's financial reserves.
He suspected something was wrong and went all out to find the truth.
Was the truth out?
It remained unclear.

Bottom of the story. Will Mr Yeo has the quliaties like the late Mr ong?

Seoul, Korea

2011-06-05T21:51:00.000+08:00

6 more months.
In awe just looking at the video! =)

2011-05-29T22:07:00.007+08:00

One fulfilling weekend I had.

Simple errands with parents.

To indoor stadium to collect the tickets.
To Wet Market to do some marketing
with dearest mommy.
Movie cum makan outing with the peeps.
Shopping with the girls.
Crazy ride back home in Vincy's Car.
Tuition with my dearest student, Tan Yun Qin
and afternoon day out with my dearest.

I shall not do much talking.
Let the pictures do the outing.

And as I spend some quality time doing nothing
with my dearest at the East earlier, I recalled the times
we started becoming friends,
the challenges we faced just to remain friends,
the fickle-minded me and,
not forgetting the super emotional me,
always crying and whining to him,
always feeling down,
always running away from him,
yet, he's always there to stand by me.

Catching me each time I fall.
Our relationship is like a magnet,
each time I tried to repel, I got
attracted back by some
unforseen energy.

Is that what its called "fate"?

Count On Me - Bruno Mars - Lyrics

2011-05-29T19:28:00.000+08:00

Can you sing this song for me?
*blink blink eyes*

Sale!

2011-05-27T06:54:00.001+08:00

Oh Yea! Certainly the NEWS of the day! ^^

2011-05-26T11:48:00.001+08:00

A trip to the Botanic Garden

A great day with the kids at the Botanic Garden.. <3

The last time I went to Botanic Garden was like 15 years ago, and all I remembered when I was there was the swans. And when I was there today, it's nice to see the swans again... ^^

My oh my, botanic garden has indeed change over the past 10 years. It's bigger, and much more organized and beautiful now.

now, cant wait for the end of the term. One more day! Yippee!

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Rihanna - California King Bed

2011-05-25T20:16:00.000+08:00

Thank god, Rihanna is back.
She has been singing crappy songs lately,
but when I listened to this song for the 1ST time,
it blew me away.

It seems she really put her whole emotions
while singing this song! Love this song!! :)

Gong cha

2011-05-24T14:33:00.001+08:00

Makes my day. :)

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Location:J8

2011-05-22T17:03:00.006+08:00

Ive been blogging for years now,
and I discovered i must upgrade myself!
Everyone is doing VLOG,
and im the odd one out!
And so, i persuaded lovely friends and
one of my students to do VLOG with me.
I have just finished editing it.
Nothing too fanciful.
Just minor editing here and there!
Enjoy!

Oh ya...... So happy cuz I just booked
a hard rock hotel's room for this
coming June!
Got great deal from www.booking.com!
Gonna have more awesome time with the girls.
Love love.

Yesterday, had a blast celebrating Dilla's Birthday.
Like usual, we'll talk non stop about everything
and was so glad we managed to influence Dilla
to have a karaoke session with us
and guess what, SHE LOVES KARAOKE NOW!
yipeeee.... :)

Hope you enjoyed the vlogs!

2011-05-20T22:33:00.002+08:00

It has been one tiring week.
And words cant expressed how much
I have been waiting for the weekend.
I feel so hyper now, I dont feel like falling sleep
anytime soon.

1 more week to go before school hols start! Yipee!

Fate n love

2011-05-19T20:59:00.001+08:00

My Thursday turned out pretty alright. 3 pleasant surprises which made my day! :)

Surprise No 1: Online shopping items arrived today.

Wahoo! I stumbled upon this online blog shop through a very famous local blogger and she highly recommends to shop at this online blog shop...

So, I randomly chose two items and I am incredibly impressed by the service provided through this blog shop. Their email replies are prompt and I got my items rather fast too! I'm sure to buy more from this blogshop. Love love.

Surprise no 2: Advance teacher's day/ thank you card

There's this super adorable student of mine who gave me a nice surprise today when he appeared infront of me during silent reading to hand me this super sweet card.

I was rather surprise to receive it but was told by my other colleagues that today is the official teacher's day in Malaysia and my student who is a Malaysian, I guess is just obediently doing what other Malaysian students are doing.

Sweet surprise. Come with a little bear. Cute right? ;)

Surprise no 3: Meeting him

It's really not planned. And because we have different working hours, we didn't expect to really bump into each other today, but we did.

It was pretty funny how it happened. I was happily listening to Nicole
Scherzinger's songs while walking to the bus stop and just as I was about to cross the road, a guy turned around and I was like, " eh hey..... This guy looks darn familiar!"

Hehehe..... I guess both of us were pretty shocked we met at the junction.

This is weird. I posted something yesterday in FB. And today coincidence seems to be telling me something that what's meant to be will always find a way to come about.

Although I am a really difficult person, always reminiscing of the past, always having mood swings, always having high expectations, forever picky and choosy, u have been standing right behind me never ever complain and always there to comfort and motivating me!

So, I dare to say... Everything happens for a reason. God has a plan for everyone.

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Bare Minerals - The Basics

2011-05-12T19:26:00.000+08:00

I recently bought a whole set of Bare Minerals.
It comes with 3 Kabuki brushes, a foundation powder, a
shimmering powder and a bronzer.

Its very light on the skin and natural
and best of all, it reduce the oiliness i have on my face!
Loving it. =)

Busy busy

2011-05-12T19:19:00.000+08:00

Normally, the air con in this bus won't be that strong but today was an exception.

All I need to make me happy this week is to be in any place where it is air-conditioned.

Singapore, one of the country that may be affected much due to the global warming. is feeling the impact. So, we are all feeling the heat and can't wait for this heaty period to go away!!

Anyway, although this period is rather a busy week for teachers as we need to submit grades for end of the term, I had a stress relieving task today to put up some total defence messages.

A small project done by my team to share with the students the 5 aspects of total defence.

Before I end, I wanna shout out " thank god it rained today!!"

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If only I asked.

2011-05-04T06:53:00.001+08:00

I guess I finally got the answers
to the unanswered questions.

Couldn't help the tears from flowing while in the bus to work.

Things have been getting awkward as it gets more complicated.

Just to let u know u have not only been a good colleague, but a dear friend to me all these while. I guess stress does make me affect how I talk to others.

Sorry to all those who I have hurt through my words.

Shop till we drop!

2011-05-02T23:19:00.002+08:00

I love long weekend.
Spend my Saturday with someone special. :)

Had a lovely family gathering celebrating nephew's bday.
And did abit of shopping with the girls today.

It's going to be tough week this week as SA 1 will
be ongoing next week and I'll have to make THE
most important decision come this Saturday.
Its my first time voting and after watching the
rallies online and reading through 3 different
manifestos, I have yet made a decision.

Both parties contesting in my constituency
have their own strengths and weaknesses.
How I wish both of the parties can work together
so that they can tap on each other strengths.

Who to vote? Who will you be voting? Hmm.

2011-05-01T00:38:00.007+08:00

Ive graduated!!!
All those rushing from work to school.
Burning Midnight oil.
Reading articles, textbooks, researching
are ALL worth it!!!
Alhamdullilah.

I decided to give myself a treat
for getting 2nd Upper.
I bought myself this Minerals Starter Kit
at $120 from Sephora.
Just a reason to shop on a weekend!

What I love about this set it does
come with 3 Kabuki brushes,
2 mineral powder and 1 mineral bronzer
and best of all, it comes with a BEAUTY CD!
Cant wait to use all of my new makeup!

Someone nice.....gave me a nice treat today
and while we were in the cab home,
that someone nice and sweet surprised
me with this "HOP" teddy bear.
Now I have two "Build a Bear" bears.
I dont know why I didnt throw the old one.
Probably its about time to throw the old one
away down the rubbish chute!!

Strangers, again

2011-04-30T10:51:00.000+08:00

Interesting how two people used to be in love with each other,
ended up being strangers.
strangers again.

2011-04-26T00:15:00.002+08:00

Some people may have entered my life, made
Significant impact to my life, and one day,
They decided to just exit from my life just like that?
Is that fair to me? No point saying much when others
Don't appreciate you.

But, at the same time, It made me realized that there also
Those who truly care about me.

Those who are proud of me, and those who accept me of
Who I am.

I may not need many people to believe in me,
I just need few of those who sincerely believe and care
About me.

Thank you all.

2011-04-17T19:42:00.002+08:00

When the world seems be dark,
and the future seems to be unclear,
I took a step back,
and when i put my emotions aside,
I feel fortunate, that I have such
wonderful students in school
and when they gave me their all and
attention in class, i feel touched and blessed.

When I have no one to turn to,
I look at my students and their innocence
brought smile to my face.
I may have to be firm to them,
but I learn, sometimes we have to be firm
in order for them to learn whats right and whats wrong
I may not be sweet and nice all the time,
but in my heart, im praying and hoping that
they will be a better person.

Through teaching, i am so in the process of learning.
Learning to be patience.
Learning to improve myself.
Learning to provide the best teaching environment to them.
Last week has been a tough week.
Not only teachers can be moody or have PMS.
Students can also behave differently due to something.
Last week is a history now.

Tomorrow, onwards, let's make it a better!!

2011-04-11T20:37:00.002+08:00

How about taking a new route?
A new route, which may be intimidating
but it may just be fulfilling in the end.
Always taking the SAME route day in day out.
Sticking to the same routine, i realized bore me.
Stuck in the same direction, same distance.
Routine, routine, routine.
Work Work Work.
What's new?

Should I take a risk and take a new route?

2011-04-09T20:22:00.002+08:00

Some people are simply annoyingly CHILDISH.
I could simply retaliate back, or tell
her to GET A LIFE.
Ive had enough of childish behaviors!
So, I cant be bothered with her attitude anymore.
WHATEVER which makes u happy.
She's just INVISIBLE TO ME, from now on.
HAD ENOUGH!!!!!

2011-04-08T20:21:00.002+08:00

Saw cute ear muffs at Daiso today!!
And we were both excited when we
saw it cuz we know we can buy it
for fun and wear it during our Korea Trip!

I dont know whether it does have any
warming or protection purposes
but it does looks cute!! =)
Have been shopping for
the past two days.

Bought random stuff like dresses to shoes
to charm bracelet.

Thank god its WEEKEND tomorrow!!
I have been so exhausted,
and all I wanna do is to catch
up on my sleep!! =)

2011-04-04T20:43:00.002+08:00

Random thoughts to my mind.
Menapause is a really scary things.
I don't know what mom is going through now,
But all I know she is really getting too sensitive.
Now that she has a Facebook, she can be misusing
It and thus misunderstanding occurs through her posts.
Honestly, I don't like pessimistic person,
Or rather someone who says bad things about
Others or themselves out loud in the cyber.
Life should be simple, colorful and positive!
Of course, we may be hurt by past experiences
But life doesn't owe us anything,
We must strive to create positiviness in out life.
Instead, of regretting and living life with pain,
Why not we seek solutions and work harder
To meet our objectives in life? :)
Won't that make our lives more meaningful.
Go Figure.

2011-03-31T18:55:00.002+08:00

Had a meeting with a senior therapist
and two other therapists today
and although its just 3 months since
2011 started, they said WE
(My buddy teacher and I)
did a good job as they can see
a significant improvement in
one of my students.

I do not know whether its due
to all the routines we introduced,
or whether the strategies we
use on him,
or external factors
which caused him to improve.
But, im happy to know others
can see that he is improving
and I do aim and hope
by the end of 2011, he will
improve academically as
well as his communication
and emotional aspect.

Im PROUD of you, lil J!!!

And in the taxi earlier today,
a cab driver told me that
he really salute people in this line
and we needs LOTS of perseverance,
passion and interest.

Thanks, CAB driver for
reminding me the reason why I
am in this line.
Its not about the money,
but my passion towards
teaching the special ones.

I am starting to LOVE my class more.
Hoping to know each of them more better.

倪安東 Anthony -The Blower's Daughter CD version

2011-03-29T20:56:00.000+08:00

How can anyone NOT like his voice?! Love Love.

倪安東 - 散場的擁抱 KTV

2011-03-29T20:35:00.000+08:00

The truth is, I can just cry listening to this song.
Although I didnt know the real meaning, but I could understand the pain of what the singer tried to portray. :)

2011-03-26T12:37:00.008+08:00

I am finally going to meet my dearest
Adam Levine LIVE!
Thanks to someone for buying the tickets!!
Wohooooo!!!! :)

Below are SOME of the things I DID during March Holidays.
Besides hibernating at home most of the time,
I spend quality time with friends and lovely Family!
Love Love. <3

2011-03-24T22:43:00.003+08:00

He's simply amazing. :)
Lil J has been great ever since term 2 started.
I kept telling myself, there will be moments where he
Might not be compliant but I can see that hes more
Willing to interac with others and are more
Aware of his surrounding.
It's really a joy to see him giggles and
When he looks excited looking at interactive
Educational websites.
I'm amazed at how fast he can remember the
Whole lyrics to a song.
I'm amazed how he can spell LONG and difficult
Words at a tender age of 7.
Words like uncountable, consonant, metamorphosis!
I'm amazed how he can do his worksheets when
70% of the time he's not paying attention.
I'm amazed at how he gets so excited when he saw
My picture on the whiteboard.
I'm amazed at him on how he can remember things
So easily.
I do hope he will grow to be a fine boy.
He's now my source if inspiration to
Continue in this special line.
Thank you so much, lil J!

2011-03-19T13:55:00.002+08:00

We may be two worlds apart.
You with your own life,
And I with my own life.
Perhaps, we are just stranger to each other.
No communication. No more links.
So, strangers we shall be now.
I may not be in position to ask you how you are now,
but I do hope everything is going well for you.
Take Care from a stranger to a stranger. :)

2011-03-17T19:14:00.003+08:00

Im totally enjoying my March Holidays
doing nothing.
Thats right! You heard it right!
Doing nothing!

The feeling of waking up late,
just slacking at home,
and time is not an issue.
Im doing things all at my
own sweet pace!
Ive got to spend more
time volunteering and
playing with my niece & nephew! :)
But as the weekend draws nearer,
i know all these sweet nothings
will end really soon.

I have not even start doing
my Term 2 Lesson Plan!
Oh, 1 week is really not enough.
Ive yet to think of ways to manage
my lil J, as he is showing

more resistance in doing schoolwork nowadays.
May I have all the patience to endure 10
more weeks in Term 2.

2011-03-09T12:13:00.001+08:00

Some days, kids can be really challenging.

And all i need now is patience and perseverance.

*Breathe in and breathe out*

Hope Term 2 will be a better term!

2011-03-06T13:46:00.001+08:00

Things are definitely going to change
come April 2011.
Cant believe its just about a month away.
Looking forward for April! :)

2011-02-27T09:08:00.002+08:00

Im a big fan of Cecilia Ahern.
Big Big Fan.
Stumbled into this website
when I was reading The Newspaper today.
Good positive reviews from others
prompted me to browse through
the website.

And to my amazement, they have
tonnes of books at good price!
I did not hesitate to purchase 1 book
after 10 mins of browsing! :)
If their delivery system is efficient,
I will sure to purchase more!!

Hopefully, ill get it before March holidays!