2:35 PM
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Life is getting kinda boring!
Need someone to spice up my mundane life.
Make me have butterflies tingling in my stomach.
:)
8:11 PM
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Time, is near yet so far.
The future is blurry and im here
stranded without a clue.
I chose to wait, and having faith
that everything will be fine.
Will it be pleasant suprise or will
i be stuck in misery?
My heart shall reap where it hath sown,
And garner up its fruit of tears.
The stars come nightly to the sky;
The tidal wave unto the sea;
Nor time, nor space, nor deep, nor high,
Can stop me from believing that
everything will be just fine.
11:11 PM
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Wish I may wish I might,
Wish I could forget all about the past.
Ouh, I wanna cry! :(
7:30 PM
Found this picture online, and i do agree with it.
My students are indeed always unique and totally interesting,
yet sometimes, or rather to me most of the time
they are simply mysterious.
I wish i could be autistic for just a day.
I want to be in their world to know
what its like to be in their world,
to really understand how their mind works,
to further understand them better.
Being around with them, i think they have
influence my lifestyle in a good way. =)
Most of my students are very organized,
and they prefer a certain way of doing
things every single day.
And, me being super messy is somehow
now more organized! I love
organizing my stuff into sections
and it helps me to remember stuff that way!
And, i like to do more routinized things,
makes me feel calm and safe.
Perhaps boring, but it helps in my work.
Standardizing is good. It preempts me, my students
and my fellow colleagues what to be
expected during my lesson.
I may have more of their traits but
let me just list down the apparent traits I do have now.
And last trait im beginning to have is
low tolerance to loud noises.
Usually, i will blast up my TV or MP3 but lately,
ive begin to appreciate music or sound
at audible volume.
I like this minor improvement cuz'
I dont want to turn deaf if i continue to blast up
the volume!
U see, they indeed have many good points
that we neuro-typical should follow.
In my eyes, they are ON PAR as us, neuro typical.
NEVER ever say they are stupid or to say
they are disabled or retarded
because you will be amaze that their hidden talents
may surpass others!
No one ever ever look down on them just because
they are different.
4:17 PM
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
I had cramps today.
Bad cramps in the morning.
Hesitating to go work or to take MC.
I decided to pop in my pill, be strong
and go to work!
J.T was not cooperative today.
Did not want to listen much to me
and it was a challenge for ME
to make him listen in class
and do his work.
At about 12pm, my energy was depleting
and my cramps kicked in.
Oh, I have no more energy to talk to him anymore.
I gave a huge smile when my kids
said goodbye during dismissal at 1pm.
Thanks to my Principal for allowing
me to go home.
Today, while I was managing J.T,
I realized that its just January
and I am already feeling
burnout.
Many thought came to my mind.
Am I sure I can survive whole year?
Is this the right job for me?
And while I was on the way home,
I did a bit of thinking.
I love kids. I always wanna be an educator.
So, what is a bit of challenge?
Every job comes with a challenge
and I should NO BETTER not to give up easily.
Ive always wanted to become a teacher.
And being in P.L, provides me the
opportunity to do so.
I may or may not be in P.L for
a very long time but..
one thing for sure, I LOVE working
with kids. =)
11:25 PM
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
I enjoyed my Wednesday till someone had to piss me off!
I am freaking pissed!!
Stupid ??)!'l!!€¥[==}!.!•
6:08 PM
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Feel like blogging, but
I have no idea what to blog about.
Oh, my new class is bunch of challenging students.
Besides handling the runner, Ive got to manage
a whiner cum crybaby.
Glad I have a supportive and nice buddy teacher
and an undergrad student to help me!
I guess Im a very nostalgic person.
Someone who loves to reminisce the good old memories.
As I looked through my old students' photo,
I suddenly felt how much i MISSED them.
They were a bunch of clever boys, and just oh so adorable!
I miss each single one of them.
Their innocent talks, their drawings and their smiles! =)
Yesterday, before I fell asleep, I was reading my old entries.
To be honest, I do get affected each time I read my entry.
I cant believe I could have such an intense feeling of loving someone.
It just came naturally, and i guess when u really love someone,
you start behaving different, and you tend
to hurt someone you love through your
actions and words.
Thats the past. All I can do now,
is to wish them everlasting happiness.
Will I ever love someone that deep ever again?
I wonder, wonder and wonder.
8:16 PM
Sunday, January 9, 2011
First and foremost, do you realize a change in me?
If you don't, perhaps i can give you a teeny weeny CLUE.
I kind of look thinner right! Hee.
Falling sick and having a difficult class in 2011
does help me to ALMOST get back my old 42kg weight.
I doubt Im 42kg now but I think Im around there!
And that's good news!! Yay! Yipee! Hurray!
*Jumping around in my room*
Had a GREAT GREAT GREAT time with bestie Ain!
Enjoyed our Haagen Daaz retreat,
lots of shopping and our supper @ Pastamania.
We talked and talked and we kind of planning
to go somewhere FAR end of this year.
Wee! If its so hard to get any more khaki,
i told her.. " Shall the 2 of us just go??"
To my surprising horror.. SHE AGREED!!
* Jumping around my block!!*
We plan to go somewhere far, where we can play snow
and perhaps meet some handsome guys.
Or better, Lee Min Ho!!!
I'll faint if i see him real life.
We are already planning what to wear!! hehee.
Cant wait for NATAS fair!!
* Hoping this so called plan will eventually come true*
11:05 PM
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Happy New Year to all!2011. Cant believe its already 2011.
Everything is going so fast.
With a new year, Im determine to make 2011
a more fulfilling and more significant year for me.
I wanna gain more knowledge,build more job experience,
do more good deeds and travel more!
It will and shall be a good year!!! =)
Happy New Year to all!