I could feel tears forming in my eyes
while Im typing this entry right now.
First and foremost, I would like to
thank everyone that gave their
upmost attention and encouragement
to me throughout this period of time.
I do appreciate everyone , besties, colleagues and all!
Words cant expressed how much
it means to me.
I tried to be strong.
I kept brainwashing my mind that he's not worth it.
That there will my prince charming out there...
But, some days, all I wanted to do
is to know what is he thinking at this moment..
Am I still in his heart?
Is he really happy at this point of time
without me in his life?
I do not know where I went wrong.
Is love suppose to be this hurting?
I do not regret being with him
but at the same time,
I had wish that if I could turn back time,
I will stop myself from loving him.
What's the use of loving someone
with all your heart knowing
that he will break your heart one day.
It's unfair that he had to leave me
because he needs to find himself.
Why do you have to be with me
if your purpose in life is just to find yourself?
Do I deserve to be treated this way after
4 years of loving you?
Why are you so selfish to leave me
hanging when you have been showering
me with your devoted love and concern.
Why do you have to show me that you love me
when in reality, you just want to be free?
Where in the world have I went wrong..?
I know this have to stop soon.
It's so wrong to be thinking of you.
I know I had to be strong but,
Im just a girl afterall.
A girl that is just heartbroken.
I know time will healed this broken heart of mine.
Soon, you will really be my history . . . .
