~ My first Birthday goody bag from my

I had a tough day at work yesterday.
But, I kinda got over it quickly

cuz I dont really see a point

in being negative for long!

People around me might say and wonder

why I could be positive and cheerful at all times.

I guess I know being negative doesnt

benefits me much.

With each negativity, it comes with countless positivity.

I love every part of my life!

I love being busy cuz I know my life is fulfiling.

I look forward to each day going to work!

Although from 730am to 1pm, its

a crazy period handling my kids

and managing my class,

I know at the end of the day,

Im making a difference to the kids,

be it small or big!

Oh ya, I did a special powerpoint slides

to share with my class on the

dance performance we did last Tuesday

and I could see an instant glow on their face!

I know that means real happiness and pride.

Lookin' at each child's expression makes my job worthwhile
and simply satisfying!!

I LOVE EACH ONE OF THEM!!

I heard hearsay about the Thai Princess

coming to Singapore and I was pretty

excited because she had included

a Trip to my school as part of her initial schedule!

Although she did not managed to come,

our school was busy entertaining

some ' very very very important people'!

I wonder if I could meet a real prince one day?

Luckily, mine only costs $26 and Azi spend a whooping $59!
Clearly shows that WE ARE STRESS!
Cant wait to shop with them after my exam!!~

Im going to SGH tomorrow morning
for an eye consultation before doing my Lasik

this March!
SGH was kind enough to send me a CD

that elaborates more on the actual procudures

before and after the surgery!

Im still feeling all nervous and scared at the same time!

But oh well, I know I have to be strong!!

Although I just knew these peeps

at work, our natural bonding together

is just surprising.

Seems like we have known each

other for decades.

We could like talk about anything under the sun

and of course the occassional girl's outing

right after pay-day!

What's school just without them?

Had a real long day in school earlier

as we had to stay back for a night course till 9pm.

The girls came over to my classroom and we

kinda slack around to pass by time..

As school is rather sensitive about posting

school photos, I could only resort to take

picture against the blank white board.

Ive been real shagged the past few days.

As class tests is coming soon,

I have been doing MATHS/ENGLISH revision

with my kids and today shockingly,

the two teachers in my class have

sudden back aches and splitting headaches!

Oh well, thank goodness when it

came to my lesson to teach,

I managed to teach them smoothly

without any body aches or splitting headaches!

Okay Dokie, gotta prepare for tomorrow tutorial question!

Its 12.25 am now and you might

be wondering why am I still awake

at this hour?!

Because dear Ms. Rina here have to

prepare for her morning class tomorrow.

Of course, my powerpoint points are all ready
Just to go through and ensure

that everything is a-ok.

Ok, my class chairman, Mr.Ng Hock Ming gave me a bookmark.

He gave it our clique cuz Sal kinda bought

for him a choco to show our appreciation towards him.

Ahh, something about what he wrote brings a smile

to my face!

" ....your infectous smile"

Ha-ha! Do I actually smile alot in lectures/classes?

Oh well.

The above girl in the picure is obviously me~!

Was at one of the class preparing for

bamboo dance's practise when

I SAW THE WIG!

Thought of having abit of fun

being a blonde!

Tee-hee.

They say love is something you can't force
The feelings just flow and too pity to be lost
Love can hurt you deep inside

Love too can make you weak to fight
It's a miracle everyone of us should treasure
It''s not like money or time you can measure
The moments of love is too good to be true
Cos there's tears and laughter,
you have to go through


Love is not seen through a tickling of a clock
It's a special feeling you cannot block
Love can last for years or even forever
But it can vanish anytime even if you two are together
Don't forget love once it happen
No matter how much you are broken or sadden
Cos love teaches us lot of lessons in life
Teach you alot keeping your feelings alive


May wonder why in love you need to have trust
As trust showed the true love you both cast
Some rather gave up hope and live alone
They are the ones feeling lonely
till the day they'll be gone


Try to dream of love, a true happiness
You'll be smiling, killing those emptiness
Words in love can never be
explained'I Love You' itself can makes you insane
So remember that love is a gift
A gift that is hard to get,
a feeling you have to believe...


- LJ -

Sometimes , you need a tragedy in your life,

to appreciate the people around you.

Through this period of time, Ive stumbled

upon all long-lost friends whom
really cares about me.

I couldnt feel blessed knowing my family
and all my friends constantly
encouraging me, listening to me for hours
and hours and I thank a few
who actually make an effort

to make me laugh and smile at all times!

Why didnt I realized earlier those
who really appreciate and cares about me?

Im meeting old pri school mates this coming Sunday!
But of course, dear Hanis couldnt come along
as he needs to be part of some film production..

H asked me to study with him together with A
for the upcoming exam this 28th.
Oh well, I so need study buddies especially
for this modules!
TO KEEP ME MOTIVATED.

Ive already have a whole activities line up
for post-exam/1 week holiday coming
in march!

1. I have booked a date with my surgeon to
do my eye lasik this March at SGH.

2. Im going to Batam/Bintan with my girlfriends.

First to agree is of course my darling Dilah!
(Might be deferred to June Holz instead)

3. Im gonna watch loads of movies and of course,
someone have 'movie-vouchers' to share with me!
Free tix!

Yes, I know its normal to feel sad at times
but I thank GOD for showing me
a clearer path and with guidance
of all my angelic-friends!

What can I do wiithout them?

Love all of you LOTS!!

Life itself is full of surprises.
I would say mine is like the thermometer!
Fluctuates up and down!
People around might know A HUGE thing

had happened to me but I took it
all in good faith.
I thank the almighty god above
for giving me the strength to move on
I seek peace and serenity each time
I pray and as day passed by,
I know I became stronger and stronger
I must say I am a real funny funny person!
The way I manage to get through this
difficult time is to make someone HAPPY!
I dont need people to make me happy
cuz there are lots others that needs a
smile on their face.

I have a feeling Jan'09 is not a good
month for many because i HEARD

about 4 long-term-relationship break up stories
of which 3 are from my GOOOOD friends!
I guess I can relate to them well

because Im simply in their shoes right now.
Ive seen girls holding on to the past
and resist to move on.
I do understand their pain

but what's the point of living in your past
and waiting for him if he choose to leave you?

I guess moving on is never an easy feat

BUT I do hope that I can at least

bring a smile to them.


Love is a funny funny thing.
Oh well, that aside! Im so preoccupied
with upcoming exams and kids in school!

Do you know what really makes me happy?
Just being with the kids everyday brings

a smile to my face!!

Was it him or was it just my eyes playing tricks??

while Im typing this entry right now.

First and foremost, I would like to

thank everyone that gave their

upmost attention and encouragement

to me throughout this period of time.

I do appreciate everyone , besties, colleagues and all!
Words cant expressed how much

it means to me.


I tried to be strong.
I kept brainwashing my mind that he's not worth it.
That there will my prince charming out there...
But, some days, all I wanted to do
is to know what is he thinking at this moment..
Am I still in his heart?
Is he really happy at this point of time

without me in his life?
I do not know where I went wrong.
Is love suppose to be this hurting?


I do not regret being with him
but at the same time,
I had wish that if I could turn back time,

I will stop myself from loving him.
What's the use of loving someone

with all your heart knowing

that he will break your heart one day.
It's unfair that he had to leave me

because he needs to find himself.
Why do you have to be with me
if your purpose in life is just to find yourself?


Do I deserve to be treated this way after

4 years of loving you?

Why are you so selfish to leave me
hanging when you have been showering

me with your devoted love and concern.
Why do you have to show me that you love me
when in reality, you just want to be free?
Where in the world have I went wrong..?


I know this have to stop soon.
It's so wrong to be thinking of you.
I know I had to be strong but,

Im just a girl afterall.

A girl that is just heartbroken.

I know time will healed this broken heart of mine.
Soon, you will really be my history . . . .